My hopes and dreams becoming actualized

This week has definitely been one of the best weeks of my life (only second to my wedding.) I have been waiting for this for what seems like forever! I have been imagining this for months!  I imagined how I would feel when I got my positive pregnancy test,  I imagined how I would tell my husband,  and how he would react!  I imagined telling our family, and seeing the joy on their faces. I imagined how I would feel to have a little baby inside of me.
Well now I know,  and it is even more than I could have imagined.
I took a pregnancy test on Sunday morning, I knew it was going to be negative because I felt like I was pmsing like no one's business.  I just felt like it wasn't our month,  and maybe next time,  but probably not because I was ready to give up. It is so so hard not getting your hopes up when you want something so badly. Anyways,  after my big fat negative Zach and I went up to Portland to help my sister and her family move to the apartment under theirs.  I had the best job of taking care of Ella and Wesley while everyone else did the heavy lifting.  Wesley just kept looking at me with the sweetest smiles, and it made me feel a lot better about my negative test, at least I have my family right? Ella kept me laughing because she is the best conversationalist.  She says the most amazing things. Anyways the kids made me feel better because it's hard to be sad when they keep smiling at you. Mollie made us homemade gourmet margaritas in her vitamix, um,  amazing!  However it really didn't make me feel good.  It made me nauseated. It was super annoying because it was so yummy. Aunt flow didn't visit me Sunday.... And she also didn't visit me on Monday.
I was thinking how rude it was of her to tease me like that,  but I guess she isn't known for being nice to anyone. Monday night I picked up some more tests because why not? I figured it would be another negative,  but I thought I would try anyways.
Tuesday I woke up and peed in a cup,  got my test out and dipped it,  put it on the counter,  and layed down on the floor and prayed that I wouldn't be too disappointed and that God's will would happen one way or the other.  I peeked my head up and saw.... THE LINE!!!! I quickly pulled all of the other tests I had out of the cupboard and opened them and started dunking them.  I even used the big fancy clear blue test. Pregnant,  pregnant,  pregnant!!!
I sat down on the floor and started crying and praying.  How could I be so lucky? How could there be a little baby in me? I was flooded with the most happiness I have ever felt. It was the best news I've ever gotten! I'm going to be a mom!
I had to decide how to tell Zach.  It was 6 am and he was sound asleep. I let him sleep longer before I told him the life changing news. In the meantime I just prayed and wrote my letter to my little sprout. Around 8 I just couldn't wait any longer. I made a collar out of ribbon for Reggie.  I put a little tag on it that said big brother.  I woke Zach up and told him to look at the collar I made for Reggie. I'm one of those people who always put things on my dog so Zach want entirely impressed.... Until he read his tag.  I handed him the positive test and he was like, "really?! Go take ten more" ha ha silly man,  I already took three.
We spent the morning praying and talking about how excited we were.  I don't think I've ever prayed more in my whole life.
We started telling our family,  and it was so awesome to hear everyone so excited for us.  We are surrounded by so much support and love.  Our little baby is going to have wonderful grandparents,  beautiful aunties, and awesome uncles. Not to mention 10 cousins. Lucky little duck we have here.
We still haven't gotten to tell everyone yet, but after today all of our family should know.
We are so unbelievably happy to start our journey with our little butt chin baby!