Ode To My Boobies

They're big and they're round
They just look great!
Some pay money for these
But this rack ain't fake!
It's everything a woman desires,
But it's not cute
When they make me perspire.
I try to love them and be grateful
But these damn boobies,
Well they make me so hateful
They hurt and they ache and I want to cry
If I didn't need them to breastfeed
They BOTH would die!
If you've ever been pregnant you might agree,
It's not worth the pain
To have triple D's!

12 WEEKS!

The end of my first trimester started triumphantly this morning when I almost puked after trying to eat my egg.  Then I tried to finish my toast.... NOPE not gonna happen, breakfast was short lived this morning, much to my husband's dismay since he woke up early just to make me breakfast.
I had an interview at Willamette Valley Vineyards this morning. At first I was nervous, I felt like I didn't deserve a job because I'm pregnant and nobody wants an employee that's pregnant,  but then I stopped feeling that way because I'm a great employee, and although I'm not drinking wine right now,  I definitely know my stuff about wine,  more than your average Joe... or eh Joesephine. Let me tell you,  I walked in there with the confidence of a war hero, and I walked right back out after a 5 minute interview wondering what the heck was I thinking. First of all, I already work for a family owned vineyard,  and they are awesome!  Although I don't get many hours,  they teach me a lot about the wine processes. Second of all, the way the woman said "pinot noir" made me want to slap her. That coupled with the fact that she was wearing a Tiffany's necklace makes me believe this woman is HIGH MAINTENENCE. But who knows,  maybe I shouldn't judge. The final straw was that I would be working ten hour days Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.
I just need at least one day off. Sundays I really need to put aside for church,  I've got a lot to learn, and that place always helps,  simple as that. Also,  I just can't work for that vineyard,  I've heard terrible things about working for them,  and I don't even like their wine.
ANYWAYS! Zach and I had a consultation with Bella Vie Gentle Birthing Center.  That place is so awesome! We loved the house and the midwives,  and all the staff. But wait,  let me back track to why we went there in the first place...
I was looking forward to getting pregnant for awhile before it happened and I had a lot of time to research and explore the many many options that go along with having a baby. I didn't want to make an uninformed choice about the prenatal care for myself and my Sprout, so I looked it up and looked it up,  with a lot of support and encouragement from my sisters and I found that,  wouldn't you know it,  my body was literally CREATED to push a baby out into this world,  and it is one of the most normal and natural things I can do. I'm very excited to feel my body work to achieve the delivery of my baby! Call me crazy,  say,  "just wait to you feel it,  then you'll take it back" but I won't.  Delivery isn't supposed to be easy,  but it's (no pun intended)a labor of love. I've come to believe that my body is fully capable of doing what God created it to do, without the intervention of meds. However! I do believe there are many cases where meds help and doctors are awesome to assist women with complications where a natural birth is risky. I also think this is my own decision,  solely my own and I support any woman who chooses to have her baby any way she chooses, because it's her bundle of joy, and she knows best for her body and baby! Another reason why we chose a birthing center is because we will have continuity of care. We will only see two midwives for our all of our prenatal care, and when it is time for the delivery it will be one of the two. I won't be hopping around from doctor to doctor and whatever doctor happens to be on call will deliver the baby. No thank you. I will get to have a relationship with my midwives and get to know them and establish trust with them which is really important to me, because I have never done this before!

The midwife we meet with at Bella Vie informed us of all the precautions they take to make sure our delivery is safe, and the  environment in the room is calm and nurturing. The best part?
I DON'T HAVE TO WEAR A BUTT UGLY HOSPITAL GOWN! That's right, you heard me! I get excited over the little things!

Our first prenatal appointment is tomorrow, and I can't wait to meet our midwives. We are excited to be apart of the Bella Vie family!

Is it Week 13 yet?

Cause I am still very very tired. I will do my chalkboard tomorrow! I promise!

11 weeks!

This has been such a great week! We are all settled in to our new home and everyone loves it! We have an amazing view,  and a beautiful apartment and we are very happy! 
The move on Saturday was very easy. Thanks to the help of the in-laws, we were out of Corvallis by 9am and unpacked in Salem by 3! It was the easiest move I've ever made!
This week has been lovely because we have gotten so many visitors. You all know how important family is to me, so it made me very happy to get to see everyone.  We are still expecting more visitors to come too!
Zach has been doing some serious decorating.  If you ask me,  I think someone might be nesting! Ha ha,  but seriously,  he has been more crafty than I am trying to get the apartment looking like home.  He is doing a great job too, I'm impressed with his domestic-ness.
I've really been dragging my feet about getting my first prenatal appointment set up,  and picking a hospital. For some reason the thought of going to the hospital intimidates me, I don't know why.  Luckily my sister in law helped me find a birth center that takes my insurance,  and I was so excited because I have heard great things about that birthing center, and I didn't know that they took my insurance. I called them this morning and set up an appointment to have a consultation.  I'm very excited about this!  Zach is a little unsure about it,  so I'm hoping the consultation will help him feel more comfortable. He told me that he trusts my judgment and he wants to do it where I am the most comfortable (what a man.)
I am very grateful for all the support and help from my family, I mean I knew they would be great,  but this is just way more than great.  It's freakin' awesome!  You guys rock!
This week Sprout has been happy to let us listen to its heartbeat.  I got to listen to it for like ten minutes yesterday morning,  it's such a lovely feeling.
Symptoms for week 11? What symptoms? I really haven't had any. I feel like I'm getting away with murder by having such an easy first trimester. My baby is already awesome. I'm pretty sure this means it will be the cutest little baby around, with its itty bitty butt chin!
Oh yeah, we got a chalk board!  As it turns out,  it's cheaper to buy one... Go figure. Sorry,  Zach wasn't home to take the picture with me in it!  But I am starting to pudge out,  it isn't cute,  but hey,  the uterus is growing and those organs have to go somewhere. Some pregnant ladies like to keep track of weight,  but I am choosing not to. As long as I am healthy,  and my Sprout is healthy I really don't think I should bother with a number on the scale,  because I've noticed some people tend to get obsessed with weight, or how they look,  and my focus is my little Sprout.
Next week,  the end of my first trimester!

Ten weeks, a quarter of the way there!

The sun did shine this past week,  both figuritively and literally.  It was so nice to feel the warm sun this week,  it lifted my mood like a kite on the wind. My moodiness has been leagues better.  I only had a few moments of being on board the crazy train. As far as symptoms go otherwise,  I've had it easy!  Thank you baby sprout, you are the very best to your mommy,  I will kiss you endlessly for being such a good baby! I can only pray that your future brothers and sisters will be as kind.
I have had some problems staying regular,  but it hasn't been too crazy.  My nasal passages are constantly clogged and it makes my ears pop which makes it very difficult to hear,  especially since I'm already plagued with the hearing of a 90 year old woman (Thanks dad.)
In other news,  we got to see our new apartment with our paint on the wall! I did a pretty good job picking colors if I do say so myself.  Zach and I got to have breakfast together at French press,  which is one of my favorites,  it was quite lovely. We also went furniture shopping as well yesterday,  and it was fun  imagining our baby crawling all over our furniture in a few months.
The best thing to ever happen since I took my positive pregnancy test happened. We heard our baby's heart beat!  I was so happy I cried! My sister reminded me that she gave me one of those devises where you can listen to it,  so this morning I gave it a try. It took me awhile to find it,  because at first I was listening to my stomach (it's still working) but then I moved it lower,  and sure enough I could hear my little sprout's heart just beating away. It was such a miracle to hear it in there.  I gave Zach the headphones and he listened to it as well.  I'm so happy little sprout,  you make your mommy want to do cartwheels.
We move on Saturday! Yay! Week 11's post will be coming to you from Salem! Hooray! We can't wait!

9 weeks!

Still moody over here! Watch out world! I had a couple days where I felt like a normal person, but they were short lived.  The good news for this week is that my shoulders do not hurt anymore,  but I definitely need to get fitted for a new bra,  because the ladies have out grown all of mine.
This week we got to see our new apartment for the first time.  It is beautiful, I can't wait to move in and start decorating and nesting and getting ready for little sprout. They are painting for us on Wednesday and we get to move in on the 14th! I'm excited to have family over and entertain everyone.  It makes me very happy!
Week 9 seems important to me because little sprout's sex organs are forming so we will definitely have a little girl or a little boy.  I'm pretty convinced it's a girl.  I'm kinda hoping it's a girl just because I want to be right ha ha.
I'm excited to pick a hospital/birthing center,  but we are waiting for some insurance information to come through.  I'm not excited about getting another pap smear,  I just hate those, and I just had one in October.
Hopefully Zach will be able to make my chalkboard this week,  so week ten's post will be far more exciting!

8 weeks!!!

I feel like time is finally going by at a decent pace! I'm already two months pregnant!  Making progress over here people! This week has been a struggle for the most part.  I'm in the middle of a twelve day work stretch and I feel like a crazy person!
I cry at least every other day, and if I'm not crying I'm trying really hard to just stay on top of my emotions and not let them control me.  It is really really hard,  especially at work when I'm cleaning up after rude people. This week two of my nephews had birthday parties on the same day.  So all of the Goyer's were together (which like never happens) and all of Zach's mom's side of the family got together,  and I didn't get to go to either.  I also haven't gotten to spend any time with the Gilbert's lately either.  You all know how important my family is to me,  so missing time with them was incredibly sad for me.  I came home that night and just cried and cried while my poor husband tried to comfort me. I did get to see my mom and step dad this week and they took us out to dinner, which made me very happy! They have been searching for homes up here,  so hopefully they find one soon!
I have really enjoyed talking to my little sprout,  but sometimes it makes me really emotional so I have to stop. Other than being a crazy emotional person I have had no other symptoms! I'm still so thankful that I'm not pukey! Yay!
Today has been awesome!  I woke up to sunshine and I didn't have to work early,  so I got to go pick out paint samples for our new apartment! I am so excited about the colors I chose.  Unfortunately Zach had to work,  but he told me he trusts my judgment and likes what I like so go ahead and pick them (what a man!) We are doing yellow and grey for the baby's room,  and blue for the accent wall in the living room. I also wandered into a furniture store today and found an awesome mirror perfect for bump pictures!  I'm going to have Zach stain it to match the other things in our house. It was a great deal too, only 30 bucks!
Going to work is going to be a real kill joy in twenty minutes!
Here is my first official "bump" picture,  although,  my "bump" isn't a baby poking out,  it is what I had for lunch,  so don't let it fool you!

Happy Rant

Ugh!  I find myself overwhelmed right now with how much I have to be grateful for. I kinda just need to regurgitate it onto my blog.
I remember when Zach and I decided to "pull the keeper" so to speak and start our family. We had the same conversation many times,  "are we crazy? " yes, yes we are crazy!  For some reason God put it on our hearts to become mommy and daddy, but we couldn't nail down exactly how we were going to do it,  and that was scary!  What about insurence? Where are we going to live? How will Zach go to school? Where will we work? Even though we were warned,  you can never fully prepare for a baby,  we still tried so hard to prepare for things we just couldn't control. Just when I was about to give up with making a baby, God was like, "nope, here ya go,  your little miracle!"
And we were like,  "whaaaaaaaaaaaat?! Ok!"
It's only been 3 weeks since we found out about little sprout,  and already God has answered so many of our prayers. Zach has a new job,  I have two new jobs, we found an incredible apartment,  and I got insurance!
I'm pretty sure we must be doing something right,  because everything is going so well (except for my husband's wife is still being suuuuuper moody, someone get ahold of that girl!)
And can I just say,  while I'm still happy ranting, that my family is being so encouraging,  and so supportive and way helpful. Little sprout is doing cartwheels right now because sprout has the best family ever.  My mother in law sent Sprout a Valentines Day card!  Can you believe that? Sprout was only 6 weeks in utero when it recieved its first card,  complete with confetti! I'm excited to put it in Sprout's nursery when we get our new apartment.
Thank you to my family because bringing a baby into this world and making the family even bigger, has made me feel even closer to you all, and I certainly feel the love!