Shout out to my man

Its such a strange feeling not knowing if you are pregnant or not. Every time I get moody or have a cramp or anything I'm wondering, "what does it mean?!" It really makes me feel crazy. I just need to relax about it, but its easier said than done.
One thing that I used to love was having a glass of wine at night. I just love wine. Just one glass and it tastes like heaven and it makes me warm and sleepy. But ever since I stopped using contraception I told myself I would only drink wine when a certain aunt comes to visit. When you have a kid you've gotta make sacrifices, and I may as well start now. My husband had a glass last night and it smelled really good!
Speaking of my husband, its really encouraging that he wants a baby so badly. He would never admit it, but its one of those things a wife picks up on when no one else can tell. This has been a huge scary decision for us, and we have not stopped praying about it. God has clearly given us his answer, and even though I know this is a blessing God wants us to have, it is still terrifying! I mean me? Having babies? That's something my sisters do, I'm just the aunty. But I suppose every aunty has her time to become the mommy. I really need to buck up. Seeing my husbands excitement about it only helps me to buck up, thanks babe.
I've always had a hard time making big decisions. In fact, I probably never would have gotten a dog if it were not for Zach because I always go back and forth about everything. He surprised me with my Reggie dog, and I'm so glad he did, because I really love my dog. Now if only it was that easy to "surprise" me with a baby. Ha ha