38 weeks!

Bah! I love being 38 weeks pregnant. It kinda makes me feel like a crazy person because I'm essentially a loose canon! Don't even look at me wrong or I could go into labor! I kinda want to start faking it in public and see what happens!
But seriously, I'm not about to sit around and wait to go into labor, but at the same time, it might be crazy if I was somewhere really inconvenient and I got hit with a real contraction... however I will probably just be trying to sleep one night, or doing the dishes one afternoon, or something super mundane like that. It is fun to think it could happen anywhere at any time though! I'm clearly not your typical 9 month get-this-child-out-of-me, pregnant woman. I am really loving this stage of pregnancy. It is my last month of 24/7 snuggles from my little guy who won't want to be this close for forever. He has every single need met on demand, and I'm happy to be able to do that for him now, because there will be a day when he is sad and crying and I won't know why and I'll feel like the worst mom ever! So today, I'm happy being pregnant.
Sometimes I get a tad bit of anxiety because there are some things I haven't done yet, but my husband reminds me that even if I went into labor right now, everything could be figured out just fine, but it won't be anything I'd have to worry about anyways. And that is why he is winning at being a husband and daddy.
I packed Uriah's diaper bag last week! It was kinda crazy feeling. I love the diaper bag I got, and I like to think of all the places I will be toting it to in the near future. Now I just have to pack my bag and we will be ready to go.
Last weekend we went hiking to a waterfall that was more like a water trickle, but it was still cool! I got super swollen, and I got a serious calf workout, but it was nice to just get outside for awhile. I'm going to have to be more careful about where I go now, because like I said, loose canon!

This week I've noticed my body is really excited about having this baby, or at least excited about feeding the baby. Let's just say I don't foresee any supply issues happening in the milk department. My uterus is getting lots of practice contracting. It should be a pro by the time labor starts. I bet if I timed them I'd have at least two an hour, but I don't bother timing them. I've struggled with a bit of insomnia, which is really dumb because right now I have all the reasons in the world to sleep, and yet, I just can't do it sometimes. I tried meditating last night to clear my thoughts. I tried for about 10-15 minutes and gave up because there wasn't a moment of silence in my brain. I realize my days of sleeping whenever I want are limited, so I wish I could just fall asleep easy-peasy. I'll sleep when I'm dead I guess.

This week I had my most favorite prenatal appointment to date because my amazing midwife painted my belly! It was so fun! She felt for little guys position and then painted him exactly how he is laying (er-uh hand-standing) in my belly. It was really cool because he kept kicking in the exact spot where she painted his little foot! I felt like I was carrying him around on the outside for the day, and it made me that much more excited to see my little moose. I was really sad when I had to take a shower at the end of the day and wash him off, but we got plenty of pictures thanks to Mollie! This is exactly why I love my midwifery care. Can you find one OB who would paint your baby on you? I doubt it! My midwives really care about me and my baby, and they have taken it so far as to find ways to help me connect with my little guy. One of the most frustrating things about being pregnant is not being able to see your baby, and my midwife created a way for me to do that in a small way (way better than creepy 4-D ultrasounds.) Every appointment when they listen for his heartbeat over the feta-scope they talk to him by name, and I love that. Uriah isn't just another baby for them. Sorry, I could go on and on about how excellent Bella Vie is, I can't help it, I LOVE this place!