How is it even possible to love having you in my belly but at the same time wanting you earthside now so I can see your sweet face and also because I'm so stinking uncomfortable? I do not know little guy, but I love you so stinking much.
This week has been great! We had the second part of our newborn class, and holy guacamole, it was fantastic! I am so glad we decided to take the class! It has really put things into perspective for us, and made this feel real, as in I'm not going to be pregnant for forever! Zach and I have had a lot of really great conversations about topics brought up in class, everything from co sleeping to diapering and breastfeeding! I feel like if the baby decides to come tomorrow we would be so ready! Except for please don't Uriah, you need a little bit longer!
This week has been great! We had the second part of our newborn class, and holy guacamole, it was fantastic! I am so glad we decided to take the class! It has really put things into perspective for us, and made this feel real, as in I'm not going to be pregnant for forever! Zach and I have had a lot of really great conversations about topics brought up in class, everything from co sleeping to diapering and breastfeeding! I feel like if the baby decides to come tomorrow we would be so ready! Except for please don't Uriah, you need a little bit longer!
I have gotten to the point where I have appointments every week until little guy gets here, which is awesome because I love my appointments because I get to hangout with my midwives for an hour, and they are amazing! I've been asked a couple times if I've been progressing at all as far as effacement and dilation goes, but I prefer that my midwives don't check. Some women stay dilated to a 2 or 3 for weeks, some go from 0-10 in a day, and I really don't want to play that mind game right now. I will probably avoid cervical checks as much as possible even during labor because it is only an assessment of how far you've come, and not at all accurate as to how long you have to go, which is all I care about anyways. Plus if I found out I was dilated at all people would start waiting for me to go into labor, and I'm trying to avoid waiting, although ask me that at 40 weeks, I might be singing a different tune! Because my midwives have trusted me to make my own decisions about my prenatal care I have confidence in myself about my birth, and that is something that is invaluable to me. I'm not saying my birth will be all giggles and sunshine, and I know women who have babies already love to mock first time mommy's about their birth plans, but my only birth plan is to rock my birth and do what I need to do, and I fully intend on following through with that! I've also picked out a really rad birth team. Firstly, there is my husband who I selected when I married him (best decision ever) and then there are my midwives, and midwives assistants who I selected when I decided I didn't want a man or woman I didn't know in or around my lady parts, and I'd rather get to know them first thanks. Then there is my brilliant sister who I can say anything to and she still loves me, never judges me, and has helped me through so many things in life. I would say I chose her to be my sister, but she was born first so yeah. I am also choosing to have my dear momma there because she has always been an incredible source of comfort to me, and from what I hear contractions are uncomfortable yeah?
So with the support of my dream team, I'm so ready for this!
As far as symptoms go this week, I think little guy is having a growth spurt because I've been really achy! Baby is really really low so I can no longer sleep in my favorite position, and this makes sleeping really hard, but I'm sure it's not as hard as sleeping with a newborn, so I'll take it for what it is. My lower back is getting really stiff because I feel like I can't even move it anymore. I've been trying to do small stretches throughout the day to get it moving, and it has helped some. My neck is still healing from my car accident, but it gets painful when I try to do too much. I've got some new stretch marks recently on my legs, to add to the ones on my hips. It's funny because I already had some old ones in the same places from puberty, so I'm confident no amount of cream would have prevented them. I'm trying to embrace them because it's all apart of the incredible feat of growing a baby. I've been pretty emotional lately, but in a good way. I'm just getting so excited to meet my guy, and I'm learning so much through everything, and I'm so thankful that this is my life right now. I couldn't imagine a better place to be, and it makes me want to cry tears of joy like ALL THE TIME!
My husband took me to the beach this past weekend, and we saw a whale! It was incredible! I learned taking a stroll on the beach isn't nearly as easy when your pregnant, but still as enjoyable. I live in a beautiful state. I'm guessing next time I go to the coast I'll be wearing the baby in a wrap instead of carrying him in my belly!
I've been walking in the park almost every day, and it's been really great to get fresh air, Uriah really seems to like it too. If I put my hand on my belly as I walk I can feel him swaying with my strides and it kinda makes me want to cry. It has turned into some nice quiet time for the two of us, well I guess Reggie comes too, but he doesn't say much!
I'm really enjoying the last few weeks I'll have before little guy gets here, I'll never have this time alone with my husband again, and I'm soaking it up!
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